Another day down!

Another day down.
It seems that I can get through most of the day
without breaking down. Most of the time.

When I went to pick up Christopher, I had to control
myself. Tears were flowing as I drove home. I tried
not to let him see or hear me.

We arrived home, got dinner over with, he got sick, I
cleaned it up. YUCK!

I promised him he could go on the computer to make faces and
see a favorite video manamah!

While we were making funny faces in Photo Booth I came across
video we made in January of Rich, myself singing Your are my sunshine (Rich playing the guitar).
I of course starting to cry!

It is only 6 weeks but it seems longer that he has been gone. Just to hear his voice and how he use to act
brought back so many good memories.

I hate God for taking him away from us so soon!

I hate God or the force of life for taking my Rich away from me.

Nothing is the same anymore.

All I have left is Christopher which is a blessing but scary too!
He needs me. He depends on me.

I am angry at Rich for leaving us.

I love him so….. tears are flowing now.

I am told that it will get better… but nothing will replace the emptiness in my heart and soul.
My soul is damaged forever.

Why did I let myself fall in love.
Why did I leave myself open to this heartache, this unbearable pain?


I don’t care anymore.
Only to make sure my son is healthy, happy, grows up to be a good, gentle, kind, loving man.

I just upset my mother in-law. I had no intentions of doing so.
Why can’t I keep my big mouth shut!!!!!!!

She caught me in one of my upset crying moods….

About Spiritual Gal

Carolanne is Medium, an Angel Intuitive, Akashic Record Consultant, Integrated Energy Therapist, and Chakra/Crystal Alignment Therapist who works primarily with the angel realm, Ascended Masters and Lords of the Akashic Records with the intention of helping others on their spiritual path or guidance in any area of their lives. Carolanne is currently accepting clients who would like to experience this form of learning, remembering who their souls are and healing. Please check out her web page for further information about Akashic Record readings, IET healing, Angel Intuitive/Angel Card Readings.
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