Worked in the garden this morning, that was refreshing.
Nora came over and helped me go through my Christmas stuff and other junk
in the laundry room. Boy I have a lot of crap!
I have about 4 bags of garbage, and a lot of recycling. I still haven’t gotten in to my totes
yet to downsize. I need to do this in order to bring stuff over from Rich’s workshop.
I plan to change his workshop in a craft/computer room, plus have a place when people stay over night.
I am not looking forward to that part but I am looking forward to setting up this room to make it my own and Christopher’s.
He will be able to paint in there too!
I am tired…Christopher was kinda okay today for the most part. He played while we went through stuff.
We later went up to Wal-mart I had to pick up a few things. I picked up some more clothes for Christopher and some PJ’s.
Rich’s parents came over for a visit tonight. I wasn’t looking forward to it as I know how terrible sad they are.
Christopher didn’t want to behave while they were there. This was the second time! Near the end he found some crayons
and drew a very lovely picture while I vented.
I feel really bad about that as they are hurting and suffering along with me. Though Rich’s mother seems to think that her other son will
do the "right" thing. I came out point blank and asked her why has he not responded to my lawyer’s request? He is finding it a little difficult to
obtain certain documents to proceed. I told her he wants the money for himself that is why is has not responded.
Anyway… what will be will be…I also said that "he" will have to face his brother when he passes over and will have to answer why he didn’t do the
right thing. I also said that Peterborough is a small town…. She responded with revenge will not get you what you want…I responded with revenge, hum… then I restated that Peterborough is a small town and left it at that.
I also said what else can anyone do to me?
I don’t care….
All I care about is that my son is happy, goes to a good school etc.
I don’t care about me, I don’t care much about anything accept my son.
I am not rolling in the money, I have to feed him, pay for his schooling, his clothing, make sure there is a roof
over his head and so on.
She commented that Rich was her son and that she had known him for the past 40 years, I agreed with her but I said to her, even though
I had 5 years with him it felt like I had known him and been with him my whole life. He would have said the same thing.
He was my husband thus my rights come before her and her other son.
I also said that a widow had less rights than a divorcing woman. I have to fight for what is rightful mine and Christopher’s therefore
having to pay out money for lawyer and court fees.
Also, I have to pay back my father for the funeral, I said, I will not have my father pay for my husband’s funeral. I will not allow that.
Anyway, after that ranting was over, I felt better but I also felt a little sad to.
I said to both of them, not once have I ever disrespected them, but when I feel that I am being attacked or forced into a corner
Carolanne the aggressor comes out swinging.
I don’t like this and I know Rich is disappointed in me…but he is the one who left me in this mess and I have to live on.
Well I am going to go.
Tomorrow is a new day and will be going over to Jeanne’s for a BBQ… most of the family will be there which is really good.
I love my family and my close friends.
I don’t think I would be able to get through this without them.