"Forgiveness, she writes, is the action that releases and frees us from past pain, opening our heart and mind to love—being
peace and happiness."

Hum… I don’t know if I am totally there yet. The part where forgiveness releases and frees and it opens the heart and mind to love, peace and
happiness. I understand what she is saying but I don’t want to go there yet as I am not done feeling the way I do. Eventually, yes, I know it will
take me some time as I hold things very close to me, I stew in its juices and savor it. Why? Maybe to fully feel to fully comprehend what
I am going through and "learning". One would ask, why would you want to do that, go through that, stay in that frame of mind or existence when
you can be free of the pain and ugliness of it all?

That has been the way of me for a very long time. I just don’t let things slide, most cases anyway, I have to "feel" them, live them, think them.

I know I must forgive Rich and I have said to him I forgive you.
I still hold angry, and a lot of questions that I know will not get answered until I dance with him again.