Yesterday Nora and I were trying to change MARC records in our system and we missed as step
thus we found out this morning while trying to loan a book out that books were not in the correct group and wouldn’t
allow us to loan out anything. Can I say STRESS!!!
I had to call down to Florida for tech support. We finally got it fixed.
Emotional day too!
But that’s okay.
Christopher spent some time with his Nana and then we came home and he had a big
bubble bath and then he had some cereal and then I read him a story called… I have created a book list for him on hear to help me keep track of
what he has read.
The book is about an old lady (95) Anna Maria who lived in an old folks home far far away. On Christmas Eve, ninety-five-year-old Miss Wire is the only
nursing-home resident who wants to celebrate. The other elderly people
think that Christmas is just for children. So Miss Wire writes a letter
to Santa Claus, who enlists the help of the Christmas Mice to deliver
toys to Miss Wire and her friends. They soon discover tht Christmas fun
is for people of all ages!
Last night Nora came over and we watched the Santa Clause with Christopher…well he watch some of it. The parts at the North Pole, Santa’s village and work shop, the elves and the reindeer were his favorites. When he first saw the magic of Santa’s village he just stood there with his mouth open
and looked in wonder. I watched him. I was almost brought to tears seeing him and the imagination going on inside of his mind.
He is so excited about Santa and Christmas! This excitement is helping me get into the spirit. Rich would have loved this. I know as he was a big
kid himself. I miss him so much. I miss watching him play with Christopher. I miss him being the wonderful daddy he was. I know he is with
Christopher all the time.
I am so afraid that some day Christopher will not remember his father… he remembers so much now and brings ups stuff from last year. Like helping daddy brush off the snow from my car using the snow brush. Helping his daddy shovel the lane way and other things.
Rich was such a wonderful father.
He loved Christopher and was very protective of him.
He would not want anyone to hurt him either emotionally, physically, mentally.
He would not want anyone to be cruel and hurtful to his son or say things cruel about his son about his mother, or himself.
This is what I am afraid of. I can take care of myself but my son is innocent.
I ask Rich every night to watch over Christopher and protect him from anyone who doesn’t have Christopher’s best interests in mind.
I am afraid that Christopher will someday learn things he shouldn’t… I want him to have wonderful and happy memories. I want the best
Rich and I always wanted that. We had planned many things to do and see with Christopher.
I am trying very hard to carry on I know Rich would want that.