The first time ever I saw your face
I thought
the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and the stars were the gifts
you gave
To the dark and the end of the skies
The first time ever I
kissed your mouth
I felt the earth move in my hand
Like the
trembling heart of a captive bird
That was there at my command…my
love
The first time ever I lay with you
And felt your heart so
close to mine
And I knew our joy would fill the earth
And last
’til the end of time…my love

I miss you so much.
When I see your face in a photograph or in a video my heart jumps,
I smile and then I feel so sad.

I will never be the same woman you grew to love.
I will never wake up or go to sleep the same way.
I see the world differently now.
The world is not as bright and nice now.

My days and nights run in together.
I exist to be here for our son.
It is a chore at times to function, to breathe, to be.

I live in slow motion.
I exist because I have to.

I am sad.
You are there in my thoughts, my heart, my soul.
Love transcends time and space.

I miss you so
I miss you so
I miss you
I miss us
I miss our family
I miss what was.