Well it has been a while since I thought about this site, it brought too many memories, memories I didn’t want to visit but here I am.
Let me declare right now that my grammar will not be perfect and sometimes my spelling will be wild please deal with it. I don’t want to get bogged down during this process to worry about such things.
Let me say that the term awakening in a spiritual sense for me is rising from a deep sleep, sitting up, rubbing the sleep from my eyes and shaking the cobwebs from my foggy brain.
I awakened young I suppose though I had not a clue as to what that term meant in the context I am referring to now. All I know is that I felt, thought and sensed differently from others, and from my own family.
I felt or sensed a connection to something within me or around me but I didn’t know or could comprehend at such a young age as to what that connection was. I questioned, I sought answers to things, I stood out. I was different. That being said, it made me a target for of a lot of bullying, and nastiness from my peers at the ages of 12-14. A period of time which took a while to recover from. When I look back I realize it must have been some karma I had to work through, to get out of the way in order to clear the path for what was to come.
I was raised in the Roman Catholic faith and to be honest it has given me a solid foundation and a strong connection to Ascended Master Jesus, and to Ascended Master Mother Mary, Ascended Master Mary Magdalene, Archangel Michael, Gabriel and Raphael.
As I grew older I internally began to question my faith, my belief system and how different it was from “the Church”. I wasn’t comfortable confessing to a priest, I felt I could skip the middle guy and have a chat with God myself, I didn’t need someone else to act on my behalf to have a chat with God. I have always felt that God and me had a connection, God was not separate from me, God was in me. So this was so foreign to me.
I wasn’t too happy how women were treated within Christianity, how it was a man’s world so I began to explore the “new age” movement and how Christianity fit into it.
Awakening to what is within me and around me broaden my outlook on the world and to the living things within it. I gradually began to take charge of what I believed in, what I sensed with my “spider” senses and trust them to be true. Over the years I have had too many neat experiences not to believe in the spirit world and I, like everyone else was connected to it.
Awakening to the knowledge that what I think, feel, act and do ripples out into the world, creates lasting energy –“good” or “negative”. How I interact with others affects them just as much as it affects me. For example, walking past a stranger and giving them a smile or a nod…acknowledging them. A smile, a kind word and helping hand to someone can change their whole moment, their whole day.
Becoming self aware, understanding how my actions, words, thoughts and beliefs affected not only me but others and situations propelled me forward to my awakening. An awakening of knowing I am spirit housed in a physical body having a physical experience.