Part 3 – The Fall Out continued
I must admit my encounter with the “scammer” and the reconnect with my twin soul Jorge woke me up to the fact that I was ready for a relationship, to move forward. “When your soul is ready to meet your matching half, your matching half will appear,” as Andrew M Parsons writes in his book Twin Flames: Discover The Mythology of Soul Mates and The Twin Flame Union, Disunion, and the Reunion. The loss of my husband nine years ago was for the most part behind me though there are still fragments floating around I can honestly say I have come through the other side of grief and survived.
I have known my husband Rich was a very close soulmate and from my soul group I now realized part of our journey together was to prepare me for the coming of my twin soul, and his death was to speed up my spiritual awakening. I am forever grateful and I love him for this gift. “Losing” a loved one affects you on so many levels. The loss can tear everything in your world apart and causes you to look at the world, the people in it and yourself in such a different light. Light is the key word here. I wanted to shut the light out. I didn’t want to have anything to do with it. Though the light had wanted everything to do with me. The light persevered, it flowed into every crack in the huge wall I erected after Rich died in order to heal and to communicate.
During the week of my discovery of dishonesty, I reached out to some wonderful people along with my close friends for support to make sense of what I was feeling regarding the man in the photos I had such a connection with and why my guidance I thought was so wrong.
My inner voice kept looping over and over again, stop! You are crazy, stop thinking about him. I was compelled to retrieve most of the photos the scammer sent me. I tried, for a week afterward not to look at his pictures and most importantly not to think about him. I even tried not to reach out spiritually or energetically. This was so difficult to do, another void settled into my life yet again.
Let me tell you, my spiritual team, as I call them were in my bad books. I ignored them and didn’t want to hear or sense them at all. I was mad. I even told them off and said I would trade them in for new ones if they couldn’t understand what I was telling them. How arrogant am I? How they got my attention back was very creative and magical. I chuckle as I write this. It happened while I was at work near the end of my day. I work at a small public library, a patron came in looking for a series for her daughter. I showed her where the series should be, bent down to search on the bottom shelf. I see neatly placed alongside the books were two Doreen Virtue Archangel Tarot cards. Quickly I picked them up like nothing was amiss and proceeded to the other side of the shelves to where the series the lady was inquiring about and sent her on her way. I headed back to my office to have a look at these cards. Please note, there is no way these cards were just left there by a patron. No way!
I sat down at my desk to have a look. Instantly I knew Archangel Raphael and Archangel Chamuel were sending me a message and this was their way of doing it. Actually, Archangel Chamuel who is notorious by-the-way for doing this kind of thing placed those cards there. Raphael’s card said: “Gentle, loving, dreamy, open-hearted. A new emotional situation! Messages regarding relationships or social invitations. Great intuitive insights.” Chamuel’s card said: “Change your Life. A sudden revelation that offers freedom. Break free of procrastination. Embrace the opportunities that change brings.” Needless to say, when I arrived at home I went straight to my Archangel Tarot cards and looked at each one. I was missing the two cards I “found” at work!
Okay, I muttered out loud, got the message though I am still not happy and my trust is not quite there. Even though my spiritual team has proven to me that they were there and guiding me I was still skeptical and still mad!
To make an effort of moving forward I followed a friend’s advice, I signed up to a reputable online dating site, she didn’t want me to shut down, pull into myself after I had worked hard to make room in my heart for another. I also began to go out with friends etc. I had wonderful times with my friends but the void was still there. (As of this post not responses to my online dating site. Like WTH?)
It was a week into my I’m not going to think, talk, feel, or look strike when I had a visit from Jorge. Just as I laid down to go to sleep one night I sensed his presence. I felt a quivering in my energy fields, a slight breeze and warmth spread up through my sacral chakra to my heart chakra. He laid down beside me as I lay on my right side. I felt him cradle me in his warmth, and I sighed.
Happiness and wholeness spread throughout my being, I felt alive again. I didn’t feel lost. I whispered in the dark, “hi,” his energies felt the same, I felt safe, and loved. I heard him say “hi” in return. Quietly I asked him, “Am I imagining this?” He replied, “No, I am real, you know who I am. It was planned for us to reconnect this way. You recognized me from that one image. You see who souls really are when you look into their eyes.” I breathed in his energies, I don’t have any other words to describe it. I just inhale his energies into mine. He kissed me and I sensed his smile.
I asked him, “Why can’t we be together physically?” My inquiry came across as a young girl with her arms crossed stamping her feet in frustration. “We can’t this time round, he replied matter-of-factly, though there was a sad tone to it. We both have our paths to follow and many lessons still to learn before we can fully be together. A lifetime is a drop in the bucket compared to eternity. We are together, and working together on higher realms, you just don’t recall it. I have tried my best to keep my distance, I don’t want my presence, my love for you to influence or cause both of our sorrow. You need to make room for another to enter your life. There is too much at stake. I don’t want to risk it, we both have worked too hard and come so far, please be patient.”
Everything Jorge said to me made perfect sense, innately I got it, but the physical aspect of me didn’t want to understand or listen. I wanted him now I was tired of waiting. I was weary of desiring something so much and not allowed to have it. Stamping my feet again and pouting.
A week later on a Saturday morning while sitting on my top deck drinking coffee, viewing Tumblr and switching back and forth to other social sites, and downloading pictures I broke down and viewed pictures of Jorge. I hadn’t felt Jorge’s presence in over a week. I missed him. I felt compelled to seek more information about us, I went to the source where I knew I would get some answers. The Akashic Records.
I asked my spiritual team if I could access Jorge’s Akashic Records, I received a firm yes. Instantly, with his picture in front of me, looking straight into his left eye I was in, I was there. I was shown many doors, many places within, numerous symbols, many qualities and aspects of him, many lifetimes he had been in and the many characters he played. Alchemy, warrior, Atlantis, I saw many children etc. Then I was shown a planet called the Pleiades and Jorge came forth. We were soon traveling through space, soaring quickly enjoying the freedom of weightlessness, and most of all the freedom. We came to a star system and slowly merged within its atmosphere. I opened my eyes, Jorge took my hand in his, smiled to let me know everything was okay and to trust him. As I became accustomed to my new environment I had the sensation we were not standing on firm ground but floating as if we were not physically there. Then my environment shifted, Jorge and I were alone walking on a beach. I remarked to him how beautiful and different this place was. The air was clear and crisp. The sky was different, the colours were so bright. He laughed and said, “of course this is a different planet.”
We were holding hands and wearing tan robes with gold trim with symbols I had never seen before. I asked, “Why are we alone?” He said, “We are outside of this realm so we can be alone to talk and enjoy this place all to ourselves.” I asked, “What’s with the robes?” He laughed. “What we wear or did wear here.”
Jorge and I continued to walk the beach holding hands and enjoying each other’s company. We didn’t have to talk as we knew what each was feeling and thinking. We stopped and faced each other as we both were feeling powerful emotions. I could sense that he was holding things back and said so.
He admitted he was because if he let it go I would be the one to feel the sorrow. “The longing you feel for me, he interjected into my thoughts, will intensify and only cause you more pain. You are starting to heal from our last encounter.” I thought about what he had said for a minute and I got the impression he wanted to tell me everything. I did try to break down his reserve and he did allow me in, well just a little. I saw tears in his eyes but these tears were mostly for me as he from his vantage point could see the whole picture and able to rein in his emotions quickly.
We continued to walk along, enjoying each other’s company, Jorge turned to me and said, “You know that pictured of me”. (The one I keep referring to, I wish I could show you but I can’t identify him.) “Yes I said, what about it?” “At the time it was taken he said, I wasn’t aware of the true purpose up until we reconnected. It was meant for you someday.” Suddenly, everything started to click into place. I realized I wasn’t nuts at all. Jorge’s soul energy knew someday I would see it and I would recognize his soul through his eyes. The experience I had with the scammer was meant to happen. Should I thank the scammer for the deception? NO!
Jorge continued on with our past life history lesson. “We haven’t had a lifetime on earth together for a long time, most our lifetimes were in the Pleiades and other realms. The Pleiades is our real home.”
I asked, “We chose to come to Earth?” “Yes, he replied, long ago, we were young in Earth age when we arrived but older and wiser in Pleiadian age. We can talk about this another time.”
“I want you to know I understand your sadness, and yearning, I feel the same. To spend a lifetime with you would be wonderful, a blessing and an honour. But, he reminded me again, a lifetime is a drop in the bucket. We continue to work together on many realms, we are together but not in the way here on earth. I am always nearby if needed and continue to send love, strength, and support to you as you do to me. I admit I try to keep my distance because we are like magnets, I can’t help the pull.”
To be continued…