I feel or sense my twin soul most of the time, his presence has settled within my heart chakra. For the most part, his presence is warm, comforting and steadfast, other times a dull ache emanates throughout my heart area. As I write this the ache is here, it is a sign we are connected and aware of each other. I have no idea if the physical Jorge feels or senses my presence within himself.
Later on, in the evening the ache and energy were intensifying, emotions were bubbling up to the surface with no physical source to direct the cause. I prepared myself for bed with the hope I could talk with my best friend who is also a Reiki Master about this. We began to talk, she could sense right away I wasn’t my self. I told her how emotional I was feeling, the ache in my heart chakra, the intense energy around that area. She asked me to wait a few minutes while she centered herself and to call in her spiritual team.
Once she was ready I began with my questions.
“I am feeling strong vibes coming from Jorge though I don’t know why, any ideas?”
Her reply, “Do you think maybe he has been quite busy with spiritual stuff?”
I replied, “not sure.”
“Well have you tried to ask spirit?” She asked.
“No,” I said.
She asked, “Is what you are feeling sadness from him? I am not able to get a clear answer.”
I asked her, “Is it from him physically or spiritually?”
“I feel it is the physical” she replied.
I explained to her the emotions I was receiving were very overwhelming.
With a aha moment my friend exclaims, “Now I know. He has come across something that has made him second guess should he be doing this job. He has seen something really horrible and is saddened by it. It is to do with children.”
I remember a conversation I had with another friend last week, she told me she sensed that Jorge was considering retiring from his job so maybe this will be the clincher.
“Wow!” I replied.
My friend continued on with what she was recieving from Spirit or Jorge, “I can almost hear him asking why? They are children, little angels…
He is done with the job. He is ready to crack.”
I replied, “Not good.”
“No,” she said, “I can now feel the sadness”.
“So,” I asked, why am I feeling it so much, I mean he doesn’t know I exist?”
“Because this type of thing also affects spirit, his higher self. Something like that resonates to spirit,” she replied.
“I wish he knew I existed,” came my next response. During this point in our conversation I begin to sob, I mean sob. I am an empath, I pick up other’s emotions and energies very quickly and boy was I picking up Jorge’s both spiritual Jorge and the physical Jorge.
“His higher self feels the same,” my friend remarked. “He knows that it can’t be but he wishes it to…
He will come to you later tonight to get healing and strength from you. It will be a little rough at first but after a few minutes his soul will settle and be renewed.
He will cry with you. I can feel how upset the earthly Jorge is.”
I validated what she was picking up. “He is really upset…yes, I am feeling it. Crying myself,” I replied.
“By coming together, she said, you will give earthly Jorge the strength to move on, to seek solace in his family and he will be ok. It will take a little time but he will rally back.
I am glad they (spirit) did not tell you too much. From his voice this was a very very tough day. “
During our conversation I felt a presence up against my right side. The warmth grew hotter, the presence grew more solid as time went on. I informed my friend about Jorge’s presence. “I’m not sure if he is here or not, I feel a presence on my right side…it is warm and solid. It’s him,” I confirmed.
“He is there,” she confirms. “Give him time to settle. You will help him a lot tonight.”
I begin to hear his thoughts and voice within my mind. “He keeps telling me he’s sorry.”
“He will lie beside you and help dry your tears. He is worried because you can feel all he feels and he is trying to protect you,” relaying his message. “Let him know you are ok…”
In tears I reply, “I’m sad because he is sad and I’m also sad because we can’t be together.”
“Yes. He knows that,” she replies.
Now I am having a three-way conversation. “I told him I’m OK and he said, “No you’re not.”
“You will be ok,” my friend replied.
“A huge part of you aches for him as he aches for you.”
As our three-way conversation continued “I heard him say he would go because he’s upsetting me, I said it doesn’t matter if you go I still feel you so don’t. This is not fair!”
“Yes, it’s not fair, she replied. I think he will stay. Just tell him to ease a bit on the emotions and things will settle. You will be ok now that you know he is ok…tell him that. The sadness will go as the night progresses. You are his strength, love and wholeness.”
I turned on my side and spoke out loud and asked Jorge if he truly wished he and I could be fully together?
He said, “Of course.”
And then I said can’t we just talk about this for a bit?
“You know it’s a moot point she said. Is he the type that once he has said what he needed to say that there is no further discussion?
“Can you ask if we were to meet would he have any recognition at all?”
Through her he replied. “There would be a slight inkling but nothing more. Not meant to be in this lifetime for either of us.”
“It is hard, was her reply. As he has said he is working to find someone for you to be with. He is working very hard and he knows you have special wishes and he is trying to fill these wishes for you.”
We ended our conversation as it was getting late.
I settled back down under my covers, laid on my left side and felt Jorge come to lay infront of me. His heat and solid presence comfort me as I knew I was doing the same for him. He kissed me and held me tight in a loving embrace. I told him I loved him.
The next morning, I woke up briefly, I didn’t want to wake up because I knew Jorge and I were together in the higher realms all night. I felt his energies all around me. I felt everything about him. I knew his energies, personality so well. I basked in it. I had asked him many times to assist me in remembering our times together in spirit and this was that time.